I started to blog to encourage conversation-.
I work at an inner city community center in Indianapolis, Indiana. The area I work in is one of the highest crime rate areas. I also started to live in the area. On my block, last week there was a shooting. It was the first time I experienced a shooting this close to where I was staying. I came into a reality of the community I work in that I have never experienced. I felt a reality that the children I work with experience over and over.
I have bonded with a certain child this past year at my work. We were talking about Christmas. I had asked her what she wanted for Christmas. She stated that she would be happy with "whatever" she "got for Christmas". It is rare that I hear this from a child. I started to think on my own discontentment this past year. I wonder at times, that I can say to the Lord the same- whatever you give, it's okay Lord. This year I have put a lot of things before the Lord- my desires, relationships, running, etc...but I have found that I want to invest fully only in the Lord. To put away the plastic, the facade and truly embrace Him. I still have my dreams of attending grad school for ethnic studies, living in a larger city, or running the full marathon- but HE will be first in my heart- whatever He gives, I want to be okay.
